feelings

the trust with no fear,
the raindrops of my tears,
but the broken glass was not my part,
shattered everywhere and hit my face,
it hurts,
it tore me apart,
thanks for breaking my heart,
is this my destiny,
or i'm just mixing it with fantasy,
nothing stays forever,
nothing lives happily ever after,
things sure can be replaced,
just have to remember every phase,
never believe in the old remedies,
it was made up just to make you happy,
no surprise that you'll cry,
and forget to fly high up in the sky,
with no boundaries,
regretting every single things,
blaming yourself for stupid things,
trying to show satisfaction,
to every fake selections

got nothing

i always wonder to myself....if write this so called "blog"...who da hell is going to read it? tough question! some random people will not read mine.i supposed.coz it's lame. 1st, i've got nothing to write but still i insist of having one. 2nd, there's no 2nd! omg! im pathetic! i've been sitting infront of this laptop for more that two hours and still i have nothing interesting to say. maybe i should just stop here.

believe in youself

believe in yourself?believe it or not?
i am not sure with this statement that's been haunting me forever...well not forever forever to be precise...
well let just say that everyone has their own dreams they want to achieve and so do i.
i have this dream of becoming a well known and the best of the best writer or an editor...
but i don't seems to have that characteristics of being one and why is that? because i do not have faith in myself. this dream of mine is so unattainable! i am not the king of grammar! i am not the dictionary! i may be full of imagination on how to write this and that. but once my pen is in my hand. nothing came out! and from knowing it all...i am completely nothing!
plus, after i've been thinking a lot. i realize that this profession is pretty damn demanding! so you either have to the BEST or you're out! i am this close to shut my book! but later i realize, hey! why not try? no harm right? this is one of the job that you get to speak out for yourself! and i don't see the bad side of it!